This feels like being home...Is it even possible?

honestly...

This year's started with the accurate amount of honesty of mine...As a result, I quit the job I didn´t like at all and I fall asleep alone. Yep, again. Except that this time, it's exactly what I wanted and needed. Being all happy that at the very end I was so well understood, I think of....
...What's a single, thirty-year-old girl (almost!) looking forward to better times to do?

Airtickets in my pocket, visa arranged. Cannot wait to sit on the Ganga's riverside again... ~ 

Almost would forget...
As for the presidential elections... Did I acted as a sheeple? No.
I did have a strategy, yes, but it doesn't neccessarily mean that my vote contributed to this democracy's  denial everybody's now talking about. I  perceived the possible chance of Zeman sitting in the Prague Castle as the biggest threat to our democracy, as a matter of fact. ..that' s why I voted with my head and not with my heart!...

~

Gosh, I think of this place way too much...I should come back some day soon...
 

Schiermonnikoog island 2010

 

What I just have realized...

I appreciate when people end up a relationship with the same kind of politeness they started it with.

 

 

ON BEAUTY

....

All these things have you said of beauty.

Yet in truth you spoke not of her but of needs unsatisfied,

And beauty is not a need but an ecstasy.

It is not a mouth thirsting nor an empty hand stretched forth,

But rather a heart enflamed and a soul enchanted.

It is not the image you would see nor the song you would hear,

But rather an image you see though you close your eyes and a song you hear though you shut your ears.

It is not the sap within the furrowed bark, nor a wing attached to a claw,

But rather a garden for ever in bloom and a flock of angels for ever in flight.

People of Orphalese, beauty is life when life unveils her holy face.

But you are life and you are the veil.

Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

But you are eternity and your are the mirror.

Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

 

 

 

° I don't know whether is this the right explanation...

 I only know what beauty isn't  °
 

 

 

 

two faces of Brno

lovely vegetable market
 Saturday morning 

welcome in hell
Saturday morning one week later 

....

It's familiar to most of us. Sometimes, we surprise ourself while talking the same way as our parents, giving the same phrases or just saying them in the same tone of voice as our mother or father.  It can be pleasant, funny, sometimes it can scare the hell out of you, though. 

This does not apply only to my parents , but also to other people once involved in my life.
It depends on what they've said or on the way they've done it.

I remember the most significant sentences, dialogues ... For some reason, I recall those with the negative subjects mostly, because it hurt me...
Some of them sound in my ears even after years and I cannot get rid of them...

And I wonder whether my voice saying something meaningful or hurtful does sound in someone else's ears this way too...

I hope not.

I 

will

do

my

best

to

not 

end 

up 

saying 

things 

I 

once 

didn't 

want 

to 

hear 

myself...

l l a f | f a l l

...don't wanna stop flying!

I lost two earrings last week...
First of them was a beautiful black origami bird....
The second one, an earring made of fine brown feathers...
I hate myself for being so distracted....plus
Is there any hidden meaning, sign?... as both of them were somehow related to birds and feathers, should I be afraid? Somebody wants to clip my wings?

Find a DIFFERENCE

Hackchaise in the streets of Vienna and Antalya...

>>find a difference<<

I have to admit it was pretty hard to put up with the overwhelming kitsch of turkish streets....

 

 

 

 

 

@ last week remindings...# who says what...

some say about me...
you are way too tough and self-willed.
I am. I gotta be. Experience has taught me. 
that is the only way how to overcome all of these shitty situations coming in my way, isn't it...?

Chinese say...
your biggest enemy is yourself...
I have been living with this bearing it on my mind for a pretty long time. That's necessary, but!!!
I am sure it sounds good vice versa too. Could it be that I'd become my best friend for a while?

Elliott Smith sings...
nobody broke your heart
you broke your own 'cos you can't finish what you start
nobody broke your heart
if you're alone, it must be you that wants to be apart
....try to think about it, please....my recommendation to those who are lost in their thoughts...
Thom Yorke sings...
I don't care what the future holds
cause I'm right here and I'm today
I stick with this.

And he says...
do not analyse everything, woman!
...and he's right @

Ab.sur.dity

Curiosity has landed on the Red planet.

I am moved, impressed...
While reading the article in a newspaper, I transposed my mind to a very special planet called "my childhood"...

As a kid, I used to be incredibly fascinated by astronomy and cosmonautics, and yes, I wanted to be a cosmonette...

As far as I remember,  this profession captivated nearly one third of my classmates at that time, the rest of them were all for dustmen, firemen and princesses, naturally. 
Anyway, here's one thing, I can recall really brightly. 
At that time, except that I was astonished by everything concerning space, stars and cosmonautics, I was also deeply convinced, that everything out there must be much BETTER than on our planet. I was simply sure, that there is another earthlike planet. And LIFE. I took it for granted...
Since I was really a small child, it was crystal clear and pure thought....

Not that I would have lost my enthusiasm for cosmonautics, I've just opted for a little bit different kind of career and almost forgot about that childish dream and pure belief.

Today, the absurdity and foolishness have come to light....
While reading about Curiosity, there was a moment, which probably didn't last a split-second, however, in that moment, I felt exactly the same way as I used to feel as a child. 
I was sure that there must be another earthlike planet better than ours and I was thinking of it as if it could be the place where I would finally find the peace...

I have never found companion so companionable as solitude

"Society is commonly too cheap. We meet at very short intervals, not having had time to acquire any new value for each other. We meet at meals three times a day, and give each other a new taste of that old musty cheese that we are. We have had to agree on a certain set of rules, called etiquette and politeness, to make this frequent meeting tolerable and that we need not come to open war. We meet at the post-office, and at the sociable, and about the fireside every night; we live thick and are in each other's way, and stumble over one another, and I think that we thus lose some respect for one another. Certainly less frequency would suffice for all important and hearty communications..."

Reading Thoreau feels like blessing in the last few days...someone understands me.

No that I haven't been enjoying the company of my closest lately, I have... I only think that the only person with the required and sufficient insight is me, myself...

Also, I read  Potter and Heath concurrently and its seems to me like they criticize this individualistic romanticism of Thoreau way too strongly...

Will see, who is going to win the battle at the end of the week@

Anyway, I am opting for a solutide for a couple of days...

fucked up generation

Lost Generation
Beat Generation
Flower Generation
Fucked up Generation...

Find differences...

There was °war, there was °rebellion, there was °love to beat everything....

And guess what it is now? It's just °boredom.
That's probably the reason, why does our generation have the longest epithet...

looking for a new mantra....

Girls roadtrip/ relaxing/ lots of reading/ swimming/ hiking/ drinking good wine / tasting pizza in Slovenia, Austria and Italy @repeatedly/ the same thing with coffee @all  day long)....

Travelling within Europe always makes me think about the ubiquitous uniformity...

and staying in posh and wealthy places like Velden  makes me think about generally accepted conformism... 

Have you noticed? ...people start to be nice right after you cross the czech border...that only makes me feel sad, I reckon.

I've visited ravishing places and met amazing people who seemed to love each other so selflessly, unconditionally...!A wonderful inspiration for someone, who has lost the "hope" almost completely... I only wonder why did my believe in Freudism become so much stronger during the last week...what a contradiction (!?)

Having beautiful lakes and mountains around is definitely the best thing one can do to live a healthier life...I am quite envious... I wish I was born in Alps...

Hanging out with my friends is fun, we have to do something about that destructive collective smoking, though.

As for the pizza and coffee, yes, Italy wins... but Italien community living in Austria and Slovenia does not lag behind...

Next holiday must be more about sea&sun&solitude

Síla v nás

Stále častěji se ke mně dostávají články, ve kterých Žižek, Fischer, Krugman, další a další kriticky hodnotí úpadek kapitalismu, jeho důvody, současný i budoucí stav. Porovnávají jej zas a znova s marxistickým přístupem a snaží se, třebaže nejsou z prvních, úpěnlivě vypotit další možné důvody, proč je který z nich lepší, efektivnější, stabilnější….Analyzují příčiny, dopady, rozdíly. Pořád dokola. A směřují k tomu samému a tudíž, že oba systémy selhaly.

Síla je v lidu

Kniha Kup si revoltu! Josepha Heathe a Andrewa Pottera popisuje chybu kontrakultury, rozuměj – levicových rebelů napříč současností, jako spočívající v přesvědčení, že základem kontrarevoluce musí být duchovní revoluce a vnitřní proměna, jež jsou hlubší než jen povrchní institucionální změny. Přitom, dle autorů, pokroku vřešení chudoby, lidských práv a sociální a zdravotní péče se vždy dalo dosáhnout pouze v reálné politice, která je samozřejmě nudná, zdlouhavá a kompromisní. Problém je, že zdánlivá a proklamovaná hloubka vnitřní proměny většinou končí u toho, že nosíte jen jiný účes a oblečení než vaše okolí…

Tady jsou autoři pro mě více než přesvědčiví a to z jednoho prostého důvodu. Kladu si otázku, zda se myslitelé a intelektuálové dnešní doby, intelektuálové typu Žižka, který krom porovnávání dvou výše zmíněných ekonomických systémů zarytě studuje Marxe či Mao Ce Tunga a rozebírá jeho texty do úporných podrobností, spekuluje nad jejich interpretací a přitom se svá díla ještě snaží popularizovat, jestli takoví myslitelé jsou těmi, kteří nám zplodí systém nový…? Jistě, je důležité poznat chyby předchozích přístupů, systémů, konceptů, i těch dnes již zatracovaných, vystihnout jejich klady a zápory právě proto, abychom mohli dojít onoho poučení či osvícení těsně před tím, než budeme mít na jazyku jméno a koncept systému nového.

Síla je však, dle mého názoru, spíše v obrodě každého z nás. Jestliže Potter a Heath pojmenovávají jako jednodušší volbu reálnou politiku a vyzdvihují její nudnost, zdlouhavost a kompromisy, je nutné najít lék na to, jak tuto změnit. Dnes jsem narazila na výtah z přednášky Alaina Badioua, francouzského filozofa, který se zabývá "štěstím v politice". A kladu si otázku, k čemu má ve své podstatě vést ta výše zmiňovaná duchovní revoluce a proměna? Co je cílem každého člověka? Je to štěstí (?). Článek s názvem Štěstí v politice mě pak přirozeně zaujal právě proto, že pouze skrze politiku se lze dopracovat k nastolení systému nového, k té vytoužené změně světa, o které autor přednáší. Badioua hovoří o tom, že pro přerušení politického systému je třeba, aby byl účel politiky nezávislý na uzmutí státní moci. Je přesvědčen, že změna světa a společenské nepokoje, jejichž svědky jsme v poslední době, vyplývají z toho, že tato shromáždění a demonstranti nedůvěřují nařízené definici politiky. O politickém štěstí je podle něj možné mluvit tam, kde zjišťujeme, že nepotřebujeme stát. Autor volá po přepracování konceptů vztahu politiky a moci…Vracíme se tedy k lidu a společnosti samotné, její síle, moci, organizaci a schopnostem pohnout sama sebou?

Zdá se mi to nebo Potter a Heath na to opravdu přišli…?

Jsem přesvědčená, že oba dva nejvýše zmíněné systémy a charakter politiky, moci či čehokoliv, co s sebou nesly, selhaly právě díky základním lidským vlastnostem, které jsou popsány v rozsáhlých racionalistických teoriích a přístupech, v psychologii, sociologii a dalších behaviorálních či společensko-vědních disciplínách…jsou to lidé, společnost, kdo selhává. Jsem tedy přesvědčena, že pokud je pro vytvoření systému nového opravdu něco potřeba, je to osobní transformace každého z nás.

Je možné, že jsem ty texty jen špatně pochopila, ale to podivné a všeobjímající víření, které v poslední době hromadně pociťujeme, mi napovídá....

Accelerations & Decelarations

... about the everyday paradox which I came across as I was thinking about time... 

Lately I have been using time related phrases way too much...
Time will show you...Time works wonders...Take your time...Time is the only cure...
Saying those phrases to people who asked me for help or a piece of advice, I was thinking about their suffering, affliction, feelings...and the fact, that all those phrases and cliches, I used, seem to be unpleasently truthful. In difficult life situations, time hangs heavy on your hands...and you can only wait and wait and wait...
It seems  to you like time slows down...

On the other hand...
I've been going through some kind of thinking shift in the last few months, reading a lot about spiritual evolution...  That's how I came across some of those beautiful and profound articles related to changing times, our personal evolution, transformation of relationships and so on. Later, I realized, that most of these articles had had one thing in common. They're describing the acceleration of time allegedly perceived by people with increasing intensity. It's happening. It's ongoing. Right now.
Could we count up, how many times a day or a week we think to ourselves: "Gosh, I wish I had more time" Everything is so fast..Everything seems to be speeding up...

So here comes that forementioned PARADOX...
Most of us constantly complain how fast everything is and simultaneously we are desperately longing for the time to move faster...
Do our troubles have really  something to do with time moving faster or slower..with time whatsoever????

{< When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves  >}

frantisek skala / olomouc / 062012 @ amazing

http://www.frantaskala.com/en/

NEVER DO THAT!!!

You know that situation. You're waiting for something or someone for a pretty long time, you left your book, work files and magazines at home and there is nothing else to do but play with your mobile phone.

In that case, I warn you! If you have, as well as me, more than 4 thousands messages in your phone, don't you even think about starting reading them!!!!

For your own sake.

Otherwise you could end up the same way as me...Ruining all I have been trying to achieve during the last few months.

Sometimes you think you are over something... that you moved forward, but  you can very easily find out, you did not.