S a t u r d a y b r u n ch

Hangover

Hiding
Helplessness
Hesitation
Hunch
Happiness

H is the letter

what are we longing for?

I am speechless when it comes to this piece...
Unfortunately, I was not given such a gift as Pina and her friends were (as for the dancing skills), but it doesn't matter...She seems to be so outstanding to me because she believed that everyone can and should! act out emotions... She was working with her dancers bearing this idea in mind and the result speaks for itself, I guess...
Once again, someone reminded me of how treacherous it can be when you are not expressing yourself, especially regarding the feelings. Pina's fellows talk about it a lot in the movie...
Several months ago I came across this article, concerning the 5 most common things people regret when they are dying here. Suppresing the feelings  is one of them...
As for the documentary, I hear it a lot that it only shows Pina in the position of Goddess, far away from the person she really was and that the dancer's narrative is repetitive and monotonous...
I take it from the positive point of view...obviously, she didn't work only with the bodies of the dancers, she worked with their inner world, souls and emotions too...and they managed to show us what she was to them the best way I could imagine...

The most important question is what are we longing for, once she said...

If life gives you lemons...Make lemonade!

While listening to Riva Starr...

°...watching this video http://www.npr.org/event/music/147566741/eric-harland-and-avishai-cohen-scrap-metal-improv ~ of Avishai Cohen (the trumpeter) reminded me of jazz festival in Brno which I've been looking forward to visiting so MUCH that I postponed my bussines trip to Barcelona  to the beginning of May...°

°As "THEY" removed some of my posts from this blog, I am thinking about ACTA again... The message I've got was something like ble bla blu bli, DCMA, bhu beh ban bdi fje and,.... WHATEVER...
I do not support ACTA. I am more than willing to pay for music and movies and other stuff, but give me a reasonable price, good quality and FUCKING FREEDOM to choose, what I want to listen to, where and when I want to do so...°

°Students have been protesting against the reforms in czech education system today...I would appreciate if people here, except attending the protest march, were able to say exactly, what are their points and how to get things done in a different, better way...complaining, complaining....but nobody is able to bring up some kind of new ideas, solution...or at least, constructive critique...°

°If I could!!!! I would force the president of this republic to stop speaking publicly... at any price...seriously°

°...next weekend Merano, Italy...I only wonder, if its a good idea to visit a city of flowers in winter...whatever... its also a spa town, so our old tired bodies will enjoy it for sure...°

°I discovered a wonderful café in my workplace's neighbourhood ~ http://www.facebook.com/kafezastavka....they have lovely bakery too...amazing!°

°...have got back to running after a looooong long time => new running shoes needed...just to retain the motivation°
°...There is one good thing coming with this terrible gelid winter we went through in the last few weeks...We can feel like its spring already, when it gets "only" 10 degrees warmer...I can take some of the extra layers off, ride the bike and be all happy that I do not suffer from spring fever this year...°

°I miss the way people hug in Berlin....coming back soon°
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~without rhyme or reason~

Boyfriend went vegan and knocked the bottom out of me....why, PETA, why?

Six years ago, I made a decision to not ever visit the Brno City Theater again. Why?

Every now and then someone gives me a ticket for free...
In 2006, some of my friends working in this theater, were persuading me that this play (Odysseus) was going to be great and they gave me two tickets, so...

http://youtu.be/m0vQOnHW0Kc

Although the reputation of the Theater was very poor at that time,  I decided to give it a chance.

We, my boyfriend and me, went to see this play and we couldn't believe what we saw...

It was the element of sexualization permeating the whole play, starting with the script and ending with the clothes the actors were wearing... Moreover, the performance of most of them was pathetic...

The scene was spectacular, but watching the half-naked actress (wearing sexy bikini), singing and dancing the way worse than any random pole-dancer does, just made us sick and we left the performance very soon...

On our way out of that place, we noticed all of their posters hanging on the walls in the courtyard...Every single of them was more or less matching the impression we got from the play we just witnessed...

Having the white paper with the word "SEX" on it, would probably do the same service and it could be much cheaper then (as it is the City of Brno's budget we are talking about here!), I guess...

PETA. The organization I fully support  in respect of treating animals...

I don't like this campaign not only because it reminds me of the nightmarrish, overhelmingly sexualized play of the Brno City Theater...

Much more I don't like the way they joined violence, vegan way of life, sex, men in the role of aggressors and women in the role of victims .. altogether in this campaign... I dont like it the most because it does give a freakish impression about vegans too...

There are so many ways better than this one to enghliten people on the way of life without killing or abusing animals...

Thumb down, PETA!

http://www.bwvaktboom.com/

..when my dream comes true...

Incredible  Days of Russian Culture in Brno

Ever since I moved to Brno in 2002, I came across an ad for this event every single year ...

Back to 2002 and some years afterwards, I didn't have enough money to buy me a ticket...Later, I didn't have time, so I always missed the opportunity to go there and see it.
This year, I didn't have neither money nor time, but I  made it!

...and  it was probably the best performance I've ever seen...

Moreover, I was pleased with the fact, that the performance of the National Theater's  prima ballerina (Edita Raušerová) was almost as good as the one of the prima ballerina from Saint Peterburg Theater!
I highly recommend everyone to go next year!
B R A V O!

DUgONG - which planet is she coming from...?

http://vimeo.com/35460011

'Ever since my house burnt down, I see the moon more clearly, I gazed upon the Evens that have fallen in me, I saw Evens that I had held in my hands, but let go, I saw promises I did not keep, Pains I did not sooth,Wounds I did not heal, tears I did not shed,I saw deaths I did not mourn,Prayers I did not answer, doors I did not open, doors I did not close, Lovers I left behind, And dreams I did not live, I saw all that was offered to me, that I could not accept. .''

poor dorothy...

...I only wonder how many hearts did SHE break in her lifetime...












symptom recital
dorothy parker

I do not like my state of mind;

I'm bitter, querulous, unkind.

I hate my legs, I hate my hands,

I do not yearn for lovelier lands.

I dread the dawn's recurrent light

I hate to go to bed at night.

I snoot at simple, earnest folk.

I cannot take the gentlest joke.

I find no peace in paint or type.

My world is but a lot of tripe.

I'm disillusioned, empty-breasted.

For what I think, I'd be arrested.

I am not sick, I am not well.

My quondam dreams are shot to hell.

My soul is crushed, my spirit sore

I do not like me any more.

I cavil, quarrel, grumble, grouse.

I ponder on the narrow house.

I shudder at the thought of men...

I'm due to fall in love again.

http://www.poemhunter.com/dorothy-parker/poems/

B E A U T I F U L D E S T R U C T I O N

Do we need an ending for something new to begin....?

Often I find myself thinking this way....I feel like I need to see one specific thing coming to its end to be able to begin with a new one...
More often, unfortunately, I find myself being sad to see something's ending...especially when it happens in a hurtful way...

It supposed to be one-night-long destruction with a "new start" afterwards but it turned out to be all about l o v e, f r i e n d s  and  l e m o n a d e....

Being beautifully destroyed, I say NO, I don't think something has to be over before something new can begin...

Charlie Brooker I'm all for sharing, but why the online obsession with revealing every detail of your life?

...You know how annoying it is when you're sitting on the train with a magazine and the person sitting beside you starts reading over your shoulder? Welcome to every single moment of your future. Might as well get used to it. It's an experience we'll all be sharing.
http://gu.com/p/354ad

OLAFUR ARNALDS - Við vorum smá...

I remember it well. I asked you not to go. but all I heard was the screaming silence of the wind, and just like the wind will always blow through the leaves, I will always remember this as our last — lost — chance....

Please, have one on me, Joanna!

I love her squeky voice and her storytelling...For me, this is nr. 1 for 2011. You can discover new things with every single listen.... Love it!
http://youtu.be/iZ-aj3UDaG0

Julian Barnes The Sense of Ending

I haven't been touched by book so deeply in a really long time...A while ago, it was von Trier's Melancholia what left me so unhinged....Now, this one is my favourite and will stay for a while, I guess...
What you end up remembering isn’t always the same as what you have witnessed....

I D O N ' T L O V E Y O U B U T I A L W A Y S W I L L

Again.

Something ends and gives me new ideas, fresh thoughts and.... a lot of misery, naturally....

A couple of months ago, I came to this place with my head full of unresolved crap from previous year which I hoped this cool city could have solved for me...

I wanted it to be a peaceful time... just me, my research - I always wanted to do, lots of yoga, couple of friends, maybe some newcomers, good food...just me and the coolest city in the world...

Well, I have no clue what happened, but this place somehow managed it. It changed my plan, my mood, my mind, I would dare to say, my life, but no, not really...

I spent most of my time here sitting in the amazing architectural gem of Grimm Zentrum ( its not the top-notch regarding the functionality, though), the ontologicaly secure  place for all those students living in this awesome city of Awesomeness....

After a short while, I realized, I did not want to sit on my ass whole days, trying to convince myself I am working...because, some days, naturally, I wasnt...

In fact, my fingers got sticked to my touchpad and keyboard and my time seemed to be defining itself by the regularity of checking my facebook profile, email box and some piece of newspaper, in this chronological order... and then I went for a coffee or cigarette or both...and then it started again.

Me, person once myself defining as nature lover, I found myself sitting on my butt for more or less whole days doing nothing but gazing at the display, waiting for it to destroy my sight completely...

So with a toughtful help of some of my friends, I went out and I experienced Something...

Also, I visited this beautiful cost of Ostsee...where I enthusiastically rediscovered the country side lover inside me and realized that the beauty around had nothing to do with us...I corroborated why I love nature so much. People would never be able to create such a perfect and pure beauty....only nature itself can.

But anyway, even this trip couldnt bring me a highly expected fulfilment so I went on with the good old feeling "I need to DO something else here..."

And then it's started.... One fucked up thing and...

.....do

.......mi

..........no

..............effect

So, with an elegant giant leap, I dodge this period of "lucy nr. 1 fighting lucy nr. 2 and both of them fighting the third one, who was, btw, always one step ahead of them " and move on to the impatiently anticipated outcomes....

This city couldn't help me with anything, indeed....The place played a big role itself, though.

At the end, I concluded I have no idea what I really want to do in my life. For sure, I cannot carry on this half-solution anymore...

I lost some of my important ties, beliefs, the anchorage... the assurance, where my home is...In fact, everything WAS! doubted during those last few months...I have no clue where do I belong now....where I want to stay, move, go, die and be reborn again...

I found and rediscovered wonderful people, friends who are grown up enough to teach me more about life in general ...Those, for whom I will keep on coming back..

I've speeded up my smoking, stopped eating chocolate and interrupted my yoga flow...rediscovered my passion for cemeteries and started to feel quite insecure among outnumbered retired people...
I found out there is not a single czech goodie I would have missed here and, yeah, I still don't like talking on the phone!

I am sure I dont want to spend more than 30 minutes a day paying attention to friends online anymore, I'd rather see them face to face once in a while..

At least for a moment, I started to believe again, that there is a possibility for man and woman to have a friendship...

This is the lesson I have been taught.

Yesterday I recalled this part of the book of Julian Barnes concerning the accumulation of losses in our life. I agree with him. You always loose what you stake plus the sum itself.. multiplication.

But there is still possibilty to gain....And that counts.

Yes,

I found a place...another one. So Unidentifiable to me that I can hardly write its name....

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